Dreams vs. Reality
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How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? I've dreamed of working with AI and Expert systems and writing cool games and doing all kind of interesting things like that. That was over 15 years ago. Then I've spent next 15+ years of my life doing everything but what I wanted to do. I don't know why. I guess I've made some wrong choices. Maybe life threw a few things here and there to make it go the other way. But the result is still the same - I am pretty far from where I wanted to be a long time ago. I have suddenly realized all of this today and it makes me very sad. Don't get me wrong: I have a very good job, I am working with very good people, I am being recognized and appreciated for the most part. I am doing very well on the big scale of things. But I have this feeling throughout my life that I am capable of much more than what I do now. I am not saying that I consider myself the greatest programmer alive. I am just saying that I think that I am pretty good and that I have the potential to come up with some idea or be involved in something awesome, something that will make it all worthwhile. Am I making any sense here? Now I'm being torn between the thought that I am just imagining that I am something that I am not and the thought that I am pissing my life away doing a bunch of meaningless stuff... Is there anybody who can relate? Am I taking my childhood dreams too far? Am I a nut case?
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How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? I've dreamed of working with AI and Expert systems and writing cool games and doing all kind of interesting things like that. That was over 15 years ago. Then I've spent next 15+ years of my life doing everything but what I wanted to do. I don't know why. I guess I've made some wrong choices. Maybe life threw a few things here and there to make it go the other way. But the result is still the same - I am pretty far from where I wanted to be a long time ago. I have suddenly realized all of this today and it makes me very sad. Don't get me wrong: I have a very good job, I am working with very good people, I am being recognized and appreciated for the most part. I am doing very well on the big scale of things. But I have this feeling throughout my life that I am capable of much more than what I do now. I am not saying that I consider myself the greatest programmer alive. I am just saying that I think that I am pretty good and that I have the potential to come up with some idea or be involved in something awesome, something that will make it all worthwhile. Am I making any sense here? Now I'm being torn between the thought that I am just imagining that I am something that I am not and the thought that I am pissing my life away doing a bunch of meaningless stuff... Is there anybody who can relate? Am I taking my childhood dreams too far? Am I a nut case?
Konstantin Vasserman wrote: How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? Me, but Bill Gates has got my job :-( Konstantin Vasserman wrote: I have suddenly realized all of this today and it makes me very sad. Thats happened to me as well. Konstantin Vasserman wrote: I am not saying that I consider myself the greatest programmer alive. I I heard you were :-) Konstantin Vasserman wrote: Is there anybody who can relate? Yes, I can. Konstantin Vasserman wrote: Am I taking my childhood dreams too far? Dreams seldom eventuate. Konstantin Vasserman wrote: Am I a nut case? Quite likly but at least you have a kewl Rusky name. :-) Regardz Colin J Davies
Sonork ID 100.9197:Colin Logic merely enables one to be wrong with authority. -- Doctor Who :jig: :jig: :jig:
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How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? I've dreamed of working with AI and Expert systems and writing cool games and doing all kind of interesting things like that. That was over 15 years ago. Then I've spent next 15+ years of my life doing everything but what I wanted to do. I don't know why. I guess I've made some wrong choices. Maybe life threw a few things here and there to make it go the other way. But the result is still the same - I am pretty far from where I wanted to be a long time ago. I have suddenly realized all of this today and it makes me very sad. Don't get me wrong: I have a very good job, I am working with very good people, I am being recognized and appreciated for the most part. I am doing very well on the big scale of things. But I have this feeling throughout my life that I am capable of much more than what I do now. I am not saying that I consider myself the greatest programmer alive. I am just saying that I think that I am pretty good and that I have the potential to come up with some idea or be involved in something awesome, something that will make it all worthwhile. Am I making any sense here? Now I'm being torn between the thought that I am just imagining that I am something that I am not and the thought that I am pissing my life away doing a bunch of meaningless stuff... Is there anybody who can relate? Am I taking my childhood dreams too far? Am I a nut case?
Konstantin Vasserman wrote: How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? I am grown up already, but I still do dream... Dreams must go on, else life will lose its purpose and I will lose direction. Nish
My miniputt high is now 29 I do not think I can improve on that My temperament won't hold www.busterboy.org
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Konstantin Vasserman wrote: How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? Me, but Bill Gates has got my job :-( Konstantin Vasserman wrote: I have suddenly realized all of this today and it makes me very sad. Thats happened to me as well. Konstantin Vasserman wrote: I am not saying that I consider myself the greatest programmer alive. I I heard you were :-) Konstantin Vasserman wrote: Is there anybody who can relate? Yes, I can. Konstantin Vasserman wrote: Am I taking my childhood dreams too far? Dreams seldom eventuate. Konstantin Vasserman wrote: Am I a nut case? Quite likly but at least you have a kewl Rusky name. :-) Regardz Colin J Davies
Sonork ID 100.9197:Colin Logic merely enables one to be wrong with authority. -- Doctor Who :jig: :jig: :jig:
:jig: :jig: :jig:Colin Davies wrote: Dreams seldom eventuate. Dont say that Colin. I am hoping mine will, at least some of them... By the way your sig, hasn't anyone else commented on it? Nish
My miniputt high is now 29 I do not think I can improve on that My temperament won't hold www.busterboy.org
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How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? I've dreamed of working with AI and Expert systems and writing cool games and doing all kind of interesting things like that. That was over 15 years ago. Then I've spent next 15+ years of my life doing everything but what I wanted to do. I don't know why. I guess I've made some wrong choices. Maybe life threw a few things here and there to make it go the other way. But the result is still the same - I am pretty far from where I wanted to be a long time ago. I have suddenly realized all of this today and it makes me very sad. Don't get me wrong: I have a very good job, I am working with very good people, I am being recognized and appreciated for the most part. I am doing very well on the big scale of things. But I have this feeling throughout my life that I am capable of much more than what I do now. I am not saying that I consider myself the greatest programmer alive. I am just saying that I think that I am pretty good and that I have the potential to come up with some idea or be involved in something awesome, something that will make it all worthwhile. Am I making any sense here? Now I'm being torn between the thought that I am just imagining that I am something that I am not and the thought that I am pissing my life away doing a bunch of meaningless stuff... Is there anybody who can relate? Am I taking my childhood dreams too far? Am I a nut case?
Indeed. I've always wanted to be a Zamboni* driver, but that dream has yet to materialize. :P *For those who live in warm climates, Zamboni is the brand name of a machine that smooths the ice in ice rinks. Winning isn't everything, but then, losing is nothing.
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Colin Davies wrote: Dreams seldom eventuate. Dont say that Colin. I am hoping mine will, at least some of them... By the way your sig, hasn't anyone else commented on it? Nish
My miniputt high is now 29 I do not think I can improve on that My temperament won't hold www.busterboy.org
Nish [BusterBoy] wrote: Dont say that Colin. I am hoping mine will, at least some of them... I said seldom, some dreams may indeed occur for real but I bet its rare. Nish [BusterBoy] wrote: By the way your sig, hasn't anyone else commented on it? Kannan said he liked it as well. :-) Regardz Colin J Davies
Sonork ID 100.9197:Colin Logic merely enables one to be wrong with authority. -- Doctor Who :jig: :jig: :jig:
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How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? I've dreamed of working with AI and Expert systems and writing cool games and doing all kind of interesting things like that. That was over 15 years ago. Then I've spent next 15+ years of my life doing everything but what I wanted to do. I don't know why. I guess I've made some wrong choices. Maybe life threw a few things here and there to make it go the other way. But the result is still the same - I am pretty far from where I wanted to be a long time ago. I have suddenly realized all of this today and it makes me very sad. Don't get me wrong: I have a very good job, I am working with very good people, I am being recognized and appreciated for the most part. I am doing very well on the big scale of things. But I have this feeling throughout my life that I am capable of much more than what I do now. I am not saying that I consider myself the greatest programmer alive. I am just saying that I think that I am pretty good and that I have the potential to come up with some idea or be involved in something awesome, something that will make it all worthwhile. Am I making any sense here? Now I'm being torn between the thought that I am just imagining that I am something that I am not and the thought that I am pissing my life away doing a bunch of meaningless stuff... Is there anybody who can relate? Am I taking my childhood dreams too far? Am I a nut case?
Konstantin Vasserman wrote: How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? I did, and I must me lucky as I am beginning to realise them now. Well all apart from the one about marrying a goat and having hundreds and hundreds of kids, but my psychiatrist told me that was to be expected. ________________ David Wulff http://www.davidwulff.co.uk Sonork ID: 100.9977 Dave …
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Nish [BusterBoy] wrote: Dont say that Colin. I am hoping mine will, at least some of them... I said seldom, some dreams may indeed occur for real but I bet its rare. Nish [BusterBoy] wrote: By the way your sig, hasn't anyone else commented on it? Kannan said he liked it as well. :-) Regardz Colin J Davies
Sonork ID 100.9197:Colin Logic merely enables one to be wrong with authority. -- Doctor Who :jig: :jig: :jig:
:jig: :jig: :jig:Colin Davies wrote: Kannan said he liked it as well Hmmmm. Must be a south indian thing then. :-) We are both southies here... Nish
My miniputt high is now 29 I do not think I can improve on that My temperament won't hold www.busterboy.org
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Konstantin Vasserman wrote: How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? I did, and I must me lucky as I am beginning to realise them now. Well all apart from the one about marrying a goat and having hundreds and hundreds of kids, but my psychiatrist told me that was to be expected. ________________ David Wulff http://www.davidwulff.co.uk Sonork ID: 100.9977 Dave …
David Wulff wrote: marrying a goat and having hundreds and hundreds of kids How many human kids and how many goat kids did you have in mind? Nish
My miniputt high is now 29 I do not think I can improve on that My temperament won't hold www.busterboy.org
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Interesting facts: If you didn't dream you would die: the feelin of tiredness comes from a lack of dreams, not a lack of sleep, thus any sleep for less than twenty minutes has very little value. You dream many, many dreams each night, but you only remembre the dream if you wake up during or just after it. There once was a guy who couldn't sleep, and because of his lack of dreams, he died after reverting back to a baby-like state. -- Andrew.
I heard another interesting fact similar to this, that even a dream that chronologically might have had a duration of 10-20 minutes, the actual real time we spend on the dream is a mere fraction of a second. Thus if we dream a dream where are swimming in an indoor pool with a beautiful chick and there is a super cool laptop on the pool chair that's also connected to a 35 Mbps line, we might think it took us 10 mins to dream that, thoiugh it actually only took ,005 seconds. Can someone verify this though? Nish
My miniputt high is now 29 I do not think I can improve on that My temperament won't hold www.busterboy.org
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Konstantin Vasserman wrote: How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? I am grown up already, but I still do dream... Dreams must go on, else life will lose its purpose and I will lose direction. Nish
My miniputt high is now 29 I do not think I can improve on that My temperament won't hold www.busterboy.org
Interesting facts: If you didn't dream you would die: the feelin of tiredness comes from a lack of dreams, not a lack of sleep, thus any sleep for less than twenty minutes has very little value. You dream many, many dreams each night, but you only remembre the dream if you wake up during or just after it. There once was a guy who couldn't sleep, and because of his lack of dreams, he died after reverting back to a baby-like state. -- Andrew.
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I heard another interesting fact similar to this, that even a dream that chronologically might have had a duration of 10-20 minutes, the actual real time we spend on the dream is a mere fraction of a second. Thus if we dream a dream where are swimming in an indoor pool with a beautiful chick and there is a super cool laptop on the pool chair that's also connected to a 35 Mbps line, we might think it took us 10 mins to dream that, thoiugh it actually only took ,005 seconds. Can someone verify this though? Nish
My miniputt high is now 29 I do not think I can improve on that My temperament won't hold www.busterboy.org
Nish [BusterBoy] wrote: Thus if we dream a dream where are swimming in an indoor pool with a beautiful chick and there is a super cool laptop on the pool chair that's also connected to a 35 Mbps line, we might think it took us 10 mins to dream that, thoiugh it actually only took ,005 seconds Trust you to come up with such an example ;P. Nish [BusterBoy] wrote: Can someone verify this though? I must admit that I've not heard this theory before but I ain't no expert so it certainly may be true. -- Andrew.
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How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? I've dreamed of working with AI and Expert systems and writing cool games and doing all kind of interesting things like that. That was over 15 years ago. Then I've spent next 15+ years of my life doing everything but what I wanted to do. I don't know why. I guess I've made some wrong choices. Maybe life threw a few things here and there to make it go the other way. But the result is still the same - I am pretty far from where I wanted to be a long time ago. I have suddenly realized all of this today and it makes me very sad. Don't get me wrong: I have a very good job, I am working with very good people, I am being recognized and appreciated for the most part. I am doing very well on the big scale of things. But I have this feeling throughout my life that I am capable of much more than what I do now. I am not saying that I consider myself the greatest programmer alive. I am just saying that I think that I am pretty good and that I have the potential to come up with some idea or be involved in something awesome, something that will make it all worthwhile. Am I making any sense here? Now I'm being torn between the thought that I am just imagining that I am something that I am not and the thought that I am pissing my life away doing a bunch of meaningless stuff... Is there anybody who can relate? Am I taking my childhood dreams too far? Am I a nut case?
It kinda worked out the very differently for me ... I left high school in the UK with barely enough qualifications to land an electrical apprenticeship and eventually qualfied in the trade that I imagined I'd be in for the rest of my life. Many years later I lost my job in a bit of a recession and my marriage started to fail. Reluctantly, and at the insistance (and financing) of my then father-in-law who saw better prospects for his gransdsons outside of England I went to South Africa for a "short" trip to see if I could get a job in the coal mines or gold mines there. His idea was that if I landed a job I'd return and we'd emmigrate as a family. Well I got a great job as an electrical foreman in the construction industry with Siemens the day after I arrived in South Africa and decided to stay... never went back .. and decided I was at a safe enough distance from my intimidating father-in-law to anounce I wanted to divorce his daughter. Two years later I left the travelling life of construction to settle down and remarry - this time to a wonderful Afrikaans school-teacher. My new job was overseeing the electrical maintenance on a group of chicken farms in the western cape - not a thrilling job but once I'd knocked all the chicken houses' climate control systems into some sort of shape so they didn't self-destruct every other month I had plenty of spare time to play with my new toy - a 64kb Spectravideo computer with "awesome" ;) graphics capabilities. I became so enthusiastic about it my new wife suggested I study "computers" with UNISA--South Africa's premiere distance-learning Uni.--to get a degree. I enrolled got a diploma after three years as a stepping stone on the way to a BSc which was enough back then to get me my first "computer" job as an analyst programmer on an open-cast coal mine developing and maintaining sophisticated geological modeling sytems. A great job but the area stank (literally - dozens of spontaneously combusting slag-heaps from the coal mines and steelworks spewed out foul gases making the area the most polluted in South Africa so I applied for a position in a more pictureque part of the country - on the Indian Ocean coast. There, for the next seven years I honed my skills on military simulations, eventually developing some pretty cool virtual reality based training sytems for tanks, armoured cars, bridge laying vehicles and tactical and strategic battle training simulators. To be able to accurately model this sophisticated equipment we had to go "play" with it to get a feel for how i
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I heard another interesting fact similar to this, that even a dream that chronologically might have had a duration of 10-20 minutes, the actual real time we spend on the dream is a mere fraction of a second. Thus if we dream a dream where are swimming in an indoor pool with a beautiful chick and there is a super cool laptop on the pool chair that's also connected to a 35 Mbps line, we might think it took us 10 mins to dream that, thoiugh it actually only took ,005 seconds. Can someone verify this though? Nish
My miniputt high is now 29 I do not think I can improve on that My temperament won't hold www.busterboy.org
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Konstantin Vasserman wrote: How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? Me, but Bill Gates has got my job :-( Konstantin Vasserman wrote: I have suddenly realized all of this today and it makes me very sad. Thats happened to me as well. Konstantin Vasserman wrote: I am not saying that I consider myself the greatest programmer alive. I I heard you were :-) Konstantin Vasserman wrote: Is there anybody who can relate? Yes, I can. Konstantin Vasserman wrote: Am I taking my childhood dreams too far? Dreams seldom eventuate. Konstantin Vasserman wrote: Am I a nut case? Quite likly but at least you have a kewl Rusky name. :-) Regardz Colin J Davies
Sonork ID 100.9197:Colin Logic merely enables one to be wrong with authority. -- Doctor Who :jig: :jig: :jig:
:jig: :jig: :jig:Colin Davies wrote: I heard you were Damn. Now my secret is out... :) Colin Davies wrote: Dreams seldom eventuate. I wanted to say that I will work to prove you wrong, but even if my dreams come true it will not changes the statistics... :( Colin Davies wrote: Quite likly but at least you have a kewl Rusky name. It was a rhetorical question because I know that I am a nut case. :) My name is actually Greek in its origin, but it is widely used in Russia.
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Konstantin Vasserman wrote: How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? I am grown up already, but I still do dream... Dreams must go on, else life will lose its purpose and I will lose direction. Nish
My miniputt high is now 29 I do not think I can improve on that My temperament won't hold www.busterboy.org
I was very close to give up on my dreams today, but I figured that I shouldn't - my dreams is all I have. So what if I fail - at least I would have tried.
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Indeed. I've always wanted to be a Zamboni* driver, but that dream has yet to materialize. :P *For those who live in warm climates, Zamboni is the brand name of a machine that smooths the ice in ice rinks. Winning isn't everything, but then, losing is nothing.
Navin wrote: Zamboni is the brand name of a machine that smooths the ice in ice rinks. At least now we know that some dreams are very cold... :)
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Konstantin Vasserman wrote: How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? I did, and I must me lucky as I am beginning to realise them now. Well all apart from the one about marrying a goat and having hundreds and hundreds of kids, but my psychiatrist told me that was to be expected. ________________ David Wulff http://www.davidwulff.co.uk Sonork ID: 100.9977 Dave …
David Wulff wrote: Well all apart from the one about marrying a goat and having hundreds and hundreds of kids I guess, it leaves you some dream realizations for the future... :)
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It kinda worked out the very differently for me ... I left high school in the UK with barely enough qualifications to land an electrical apprenticeship and eventually qualfied in the trade that I imagined I'd be in for the rest of my life. Many years later I lost my job in a bit of a recession and my marriage started to fail. Reluctantly, and at the insistance (and financing) of my then father-in-law who saw better prospects for his gransdsons outside of England I went to South Africa for a "short" trip to see if I could get a job in the coal mines or gold mines there. His idea was that if I landed a job I'd return and we'd emmigrate as a family. Well I got a great job as an electrical foreman in the construction industry with Siemens the day after I arrived in South Africa and decided to stay... never went back .. and decided I was at a safe enough distance from my intimidating father-in-law to anounce I wanted to divorce his daughter. Two years later I left the travelling life of construction to settle down and remarry - this time to a wonderful Afrikaans school-teacher. My new job was overseeing the electrical maintenance on a group of chicken farms in the western cape - not a thrilling job but once I'd knocked all the chicken houses' climate control systems into some sort of shape so they didn't self-destruct every other month I had plenty of spare time to play with my new toy - a 64kb Spectravideo computer with "awesome" ;) graphics capabilities. I became so enthusiastic about it my new wife suggested I study "computers" with UNISA--South Africa's premiere distance-learning Uni.--to get a degree. I enrolled got a diploma after three years as a stepping stone on the way to a BSc which was enough back then to get me my first "computer" job as an analyst programmer on an open-cast coal mine developing and maintaining sophisticated geological modeling sytems. A great job but the area stank (literally - dozens of spontaneously combusting slag-heaps from the coal mines and steelworks spewed out foul gases making the area the most polluted in South Africa so I applied for a position in a more pictureque part of the country - on the Indian Ocean coast. There, for the next seven years I honed my skills on military simulations, eventually developing some pretty cool virtual reality based training sytems for tanks, armoured cars, bridge laying vehicles and tactical and strategic battle training simulators. To be able to accurately model this sophisticated equipment we had to go "play" with it to get a feel for how i
This is quite a success story you've got there. Well, good luck with your future endeavors (including becoming a great artist). :)
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How many of you have had dreams about what you are going to be doing when you'll grow up? I've dreamed of working with AI and Expert systems and writing cool games and doing all kind of interesting things like that. That was over 15 years ago. Then I've spent next 15+ years of my life doing everything but what I wanted to do. I don't know why. I guess I've made some wrong choices. Maybe life threw a few things here and there to make it go the other way. But the result is still the same - I am pretty far from where I wanted to be a long time ago. I have suddenly realized all of this today and it makes me very sad. Don't get me wrong: I have a very good job, I am working with very good people, I am being recognized and appreciated for the most part. I am doing very well on the big scale of things. But I have this feeling throughout my life that I am capable of much more than what I do now. I am not saying that I consider myself the greatest programmer alive. I am just saying that I think that I am pretty good and that I have the potential to come up with some idea or be involved in something awesome, something that will make it all worthwhile. Am I making any sense here? Now I'm being torn between the thought that I am just imagining that I am something that I am not and the thought that I am pissing my life away doing a bunch of meaningless stuff... Is there anybody who can relate? Am I taking my childhood dreams too far? Am I a nut case?
I am at the verge of my adult life so this is where I finally get a chance to fulfill my dreams. Right now I'm getting all the experience/diplomas I need to start out. Hopefully I'll get a big project in a couple of weeks (pays great too) and in 6 months I'm hoping to move south and FINALLY go to Uni. My whole life is going through a change now, getting ready to leave home, my friends and family. A fresh start in a new place all by myself. Scary and exciting at the same time. Ask me in 15 years and I'll answer your question. I can hardly wait. Isaac Sasson, Small time programmer - complainer at large. Sonork ID 100.13704