Sometimes Life Sucks
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Thanks Ant. My rational side knows all this. Of course I have saved some lives (now that's a rush, believe me) and helped lots of others but this one hurts bad. One of the most positive things about ambulance work is how it has changed my life. It didn't take me long to realise just how quick a life can change. I have done a whole heap of things that I had put off until "one day" because I have seen people whose lives have changed in an instant. Carpe Diem Paul Hooper If you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder, they will get you from the front instead.
Paul Hooper wrote: this one hurts bad I completely understand Paul. It is human nature to feel this way. Time has a wonderful way of healing however. Ant. I'm hard, yet soft.
I'm coloured, yet clear.
I'm fruity and sweet.
I'm jelly, what am I? Muse on it further, I shall return! - David Williams (Little Britain) -
I lost my first patient today and I am really down. I am a volunteer ambulance officer in a little Western Australian country town. I have been involved for a while now and I have had about 10 dead patients but they have all either died before we got to the scene or after I have handed over to the local hospital. Today, despite our best efforts, the patient died - literally in my arms. My rational side knows that we did nothing wrong - it was just their time and in all liklihood no one could have saved them. My emotional side just feels sick - especially as I later found out that the patient leaves a wife and 6 week old baby. Thank goodness I went off call tonight. Now I am dreading Monday morning when I pick up the emergency radio again. :((:((:((:((:(( Paul Hooper If you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder, they will get you from the front instead.
If he was awake, he certainly felt better knowing someone was trying their best to save him. His family would too. The first time will be the worst. Is there counseling available? :rose: There is no doubt when the first automobile race occurred. It was when the second automobile was built. - Richard Petty
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I lost my first patient today and I am really down. I am a volunteer ambulance officer in a little Western Australian country town. I have been involved for a while now and I have had about 10 dead patients but they have all either died before we got to the scene or after I have handed over to the local hospital. Today, despite our best efforts, the patient died - literally in my arms. My rational side knows that we did nothing wrong - it was just their time and in all liklihood no one could have saved them. My emotional side just feels sick - especially as I later found out that the patient leaves a wife and 6 week old baby. Thank goodness I went off call tonight. Now I am dreading Monday morning when I pick up the emergency radio again. :((:((:((:((:(( Paul Hooper If you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder, they will get you from the front instead.
Paul, There's not much I can say to make you feel better about this. I just want you to keep in mind that come Monday you may go out on a call that saves the life of a child, and that is what you do. Know what I mean jellybean. :) Best, Jerry
Contrary to the cliche, genuinely nice guys most often finish first or very near it.--Malcolm Forbes
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I lost my first patient today and I am really down. I am a volunteer ambulance officer in a little Western Australian country town. I have been involved for a while now and I have had about 10 dead patients but they have all either died before we got to the scene or after I have handed over to the local hospital. Today, despite our best efforts, the patient died - literally in my arms. My rational side knows that we did nothing wrong - it was just their time and in all liklihood no one could have saved them. My emotional side just feels sick - especially as I later found out that the patient leaves a wife and 6 week old baby. Thank goodness I went off call tonight. Now I am dreading Monday morning when I pick up the emergency radio again. :((:((:((:((:(( Paul Hooper If you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder, they will get you from the front instead.
Maybe you would feel better if you spoke with the wife? Perhaps volunteer to help mow the lawn or do something for her until things have settled down.
"Live long and prosper." - Spock
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I lost my first patient today and I am really down. I am a volunteer ambulance officer in a little Western Australian country town. I have been involved for a while now and I have had about 10 dead patients but they have all either died before we got to the scene or after I have handed over to the local hospital. Today, despite our best efforts, the patient died - literally in my arms. My rational side knows that we did nothing wrong - it was just their time and in all liklihood no one could have saved them. My emotional side just feels sick - especially as I later found out that the patient leaves a wife and 6 week old baby. Thank goodness I went off call tonight. Now I am dreading Monday morning when I pick up the emergency radio again. :((:((:((:((:(( Paul Hooper If you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder, they will get you from the front instead.
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I lost my first patient today and I am really down. I am a volunteer ambulance officer in a little Western Australian country town. I have been involved for a while now and I have had about 10 dead patients but they have all either died before we got to the scene or after I have handed over to the local hospital. Today, despite our best efforts, the patient died - literally in my arms. My rational side knows that we did nothing wrong - it was just their time and in all liklihood no one could have saved them. My emotional side just feels sick - especially as I later found out that the patient leaves a wife and 6 week old baby. Thank goodness I went off call tonight. Now I am dreading Monday morning when I pick up the emergency radio again. :((:((:((:((:(( Paul Hooper If you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder, they will get you from the front instead.
Paul Hooper wrote: My emotional side just feels sick It certainly brings us face to face with our own frailties and limitations. This is a time to rely on friends, coworkers and families to help you heal your own pain. I doubt the sick feeling will ever go away--the best you can hope for is to develop the skills to cope with it. Marc MyXaml Advanced Unit Testing
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I lost my first patient today and I am really down. I am a volunteer ambulance officer in a little Western Australian country town. I have been involved for a while now and I have had about 10 dead patients but they have all either died before we got to the scene or after I have handed over to the local hospital. Today, despite our best efforts, the patient died - literally in my arms. My rational side knows that we did nothing wrong - it was just their time and in all liklihood no one could have saved them. My emotional side just feels sick - especially as I later found out that the patient leaves a wife and 6 week old baby. Thank goodness I went off call tonight. Now I am dreading Monday morning when I pick up the emergency radio again. :((:((:((:((:(( Paul Hooper If you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder, they will get you from the front instead.
A moment of silence, as there is nothing I can say.
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I lost my first patient today and I am really down. I am a volunteer ambulance officer in a little Western Australian country town. I have been involved for a while now and I have had about 10 dead patients but they have all either died before we got to the scene or after I have handed over to the local hospital. Today, despite our best efforts, the patient died - literally in my arms. My rational side knows that we did nothing wrong - it was just their time and in all liklihood no one could have saved them. My emotional side just feels sick - especially as I later found out that the patient leaves a wife and 6 week old baby. Thank goodness I went off call tonight. Now I am dreading Monday morning when I pick up the emergency radio again. :((:((:((:((:(( Paul Hooper If you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder, they will get you from the front instead.
I salute you for the work you're doing. In this difficult time try to think of the people you helped. I'm sure things would be a lot worse without people like you. So cheer up. "One of the Georges," said Psmith, "I forget which, once said that a certain number of hours' sleep a day--I cannot recall for the moment how many--made a man something, which for the time being has slipped my memory."
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I lost my first patient today and I am really down. I am a volunteer ambulance officer in a little Western Australian country town. I have been involved for a while now and I have had about 10 dead patients but they have all either died before we got to the scene or after I have handed over to the local hospital. Today, despite our best efforts, the patient died - literally in my arms. My rational side knows that we did nothing wrong - it was just their time and in all liklihood no one could have saved them. My emotional side just feels sick - especially as I later found out that the patient leaves a wife and 6 week old baby. Thank goodness I went off call tonight. Now I am dreading Monday morning when I pick up the emergency radio again. :((:((:((:((:(( Paul Hooper If you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder, they will get you from the front instead.
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I lost my first patient today and I am really down. I am a volunteer ambulance officer in a little Western Australian country town. I have been involved for a while now and I have had about 10 dead patients but they have all either died before we got to the scene or after I have handed over to the local hospital. Today, despite our best efforts, the patient died - literally in my arms. My rational side knows that we did nothing wrong - it was just their time and in all liklihood no one could have saved them. My emotional side just feels sick - especially as I later found out that the patient leaves a wife and 6 week old baby. Thank goodness I went off call tonight. Now I am dreading Monday morning when I pick up the emergency radio again. :((:((:((:((:(( Paul Hooper If you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder, they will get you from the front instead.
Take care of yourself, Paul. I continue to be amazed at the wonderful work rescue workers perform. We are all in your debt.
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I lost my first patient today and I am really down. I am a volunteer ambulance officer in a little Western Australian country town. I have been involved for a while now and I have had about 10 dead patients but they have all either died before we got to the scene or after I have handed over to the local hospital. Today, despite our best efforts, the patient died - literally in my arms. My rational side knows that we did nothing wrong - it was just their time and in all liklihood no one could have saved them. My emotional side just feels sick - especially as I later found out that the patient leaves a wife and 6 week old baby. Thank goodness I went off call tonight. Now I am dreading Monday morning when I pick up the emergency radio again. :((:((:((:((:(( Paul Hooper If you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder, they will get you from the front instead.
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I lost my first patient today and I am really down. I am a volunteer ambulance officer in a little Western Australian country town. I have been involved for a while now and I have had about 10 dead patients but they have all either died before we got to the scene or after I have handed over to the local hospital. Today, despite our best efforts, the patient died - literally in my arms. My rational side knows that we did nothing wrong - it was just their time and in all liklihood no one could have saved them. My emotional side just feels sick - especially as I later found out that the patient leaves a wife and 6 week old baby. Thank goodness I went off call tonight. Now I am dreading Monday morning when I pick up the emergency radio again. :((:((:((:((:(( Paul Hooper If you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder, they will get you from the front instead.
:hug: It hurts like hell right now, but would you rather be someone who felt nothing good or bad ? Or who stood back and did nothing ? Think about all those other times you made a difference for the bettter. Elaine :love: The tigress is here :-D
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I agree with Anthony, think of the positive side! Think of all the people you have saved and may not have lived if you were not doing what did to help them. I commend you and others that do the same as you. I diffently dont have the heart for that stuff, I don't think I could handle it. Keep your head up and just try to think of all those you have saved.
There are 10 kinds of people in this world. Those who understand binary and those who don't.
BrockVnm wrote: I commend you and others that do the same as you. I diffently dont have the heart for that stuff, I don't think I could handle it. True, i couldn`t stand seeing blood. You`ve done a great job Paul. Keep up the good work.
Work hard and a bit of luck is the key to success.
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I lost my first patient today and I am really down. I am a volunteer ambulance officer in a little Western Australian country town. I have been involved for a while now and I have had about 10 dead patients but they have all either died before we got to the scene or after I have handed over to the local hospital. Today, despite our best efforts, the patient died - literally in my arms. My rational side knows that we did nothing wrong - it was just their time and in all liklihood no one could have saved them. My emotional side just feels sick - especially as I later found out that the patient leaves a wife and 6 week old baby. Thank goodness I went off call tonight. Now I am dreading Monday morning when I pick up the emergency radio again. :((:((:((:((:(( Paul Hooper If you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder, they will get you from the front instead.