Yikes! Imposter syndrome
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One thing about working on embedded stuff, is it's all very formal and stiff to me. You can tell the culture is very academic and engineering oriented. I'm fine with that in theory, even if it's not me. I was at Microsoft at 18, so I'm self taught. I kind of fell into this field, and it's kind of frightening, because it's just so not my way of going about things. If I was Buddhist the way I'm a coder, I'd blow my nose on my robes. I am far more creative than I am meticulous. I am idea person. Coding is a means to an end for me - realizing a design - bringing that *design* to life. And that part of the field appeals to me. But the way everybody goes about it - documenting in triplicate, expressing theories behind operation, and just dotting i's and crossing t's that I've never bothered with. I feel unqualified. I feel I'm being trusted with stuff I shouldn't be. And yet people are happy with it, so I tell myself, it's all good. But is it? And how far can my ruthlessly autodidactic nature take me in this field? I've never had the head for school. I used to ace tests after learning the material on my own, but that feels like it serves me here as well as it would (or rather wouldn't) at university. I feel like an artist more than an engineer. I know there are other developers I consider to be engineers first. I'm not saying it isn't some of both in many cases, just expressing the side i tend to come down on pretty heavily.
Check out my IoT graphics library here: https://honeythecodewitch.com/gfx And my IoT UI/User Experience library here: https://honeythecodewitch.com/uix
