gavindon wrote:

well I didn't even want to be associated with even Typing those words..

There's a difference between being a newb and being a douche ;)

gavindon wrote:

I now work at my first job(in IT) and managed to land a job where I am the ONLY developer at this company .

Been there. Going from simple college projects to being responsible for getting code running in production, in a new language no less, is quite a challenge. It's a tough road but it's the fast track to being a senior level dev. At times I felt like I learned more in a day than some of my peers at other jobs learned in a month. The harder you work for the knowledge the stronger you'll retain it and the better you'll be at applying it. Don't worry too much about the 'gimme code' folk they're probably not going to get very far.